Never, never, never, never give up.

I haven’t been able to get on tumblr in a couple weeks, so I just thought, since I finallya had a bit of time I’d update everyone.

I missed WIW last week, I did weigh myself, but never got a chance to post it, so I guess I will today.  Last wednesday and today I weighed the same.  My weight hasn’t changed in about 3 weeks.  This makes me a bit sad, however, at least I’m not gaining.  I have finally been able to establish a semi time block, in which I’ve scheduled workout time.  I think this is the #1 reason I haven’t lost anymore, I’m sure of it. Hopefully now that I’ve scheduled the time, I won’t be able to excuse not doing it.  we’ll see :)

Also, I was going back through some posts you guys have been putting up, and I just wanted to let you know how awesome you are for sticking with it.  I love reading everyone’s posts and hopefully it won’t be another 2 weeks before I get chance to get on here again because you guys really help motivate me.  Thank you.

Here’s to a great rest of the week everyone!

it’s been a few days since I’ve posted anything so I thought I’d give an update.  My food choices have been good and bad, but overall pretty good.  I’ve been crazy busy with work, but tonight I ran for 10 whole minutes w/o stopping, which is great for someone as out of shape as I am.  I really had to push myself hard to keep up the pace, but I’m so glad I did it.  I hope I can keep up this drive….I just gotta keep running towards that skinny girl I daydream about while running :)

This morning, I was afraid to get on the scale because I have had a couple days that weren’t ideal ( i.e. drinking all night sat. and eating bread all night at a wildtree tasting party)  however, I still lost a little, which is fantastic.  My goal was to not beat myself up too much if I gained any.  Oh happy day.

Starting weight: 200.4

Current Weight:194.8

Good plans shape good decisions.  That’s why good planning helps to make elusive dreams come true.”

-Lester R Bittel, The Nine Master Keys of Management

We normally get our groceries at a local grocer on sunday afternoons, but yesterday we decided to go hunt down the trader joes here in Madison.  It wasn’t bad, they didn’t have everything I needed, and I’m not a fan of going to 20 different stores to buy things, but we did get some good stuff, for a good price.

I figure, the whole organic movement is more expensive, and there are many unknown facts or misleading beliefs about things being labeled as organic, so I’m not going all crazy and buying everything that way because it’s a waste of money, but there are a few too many refine, far far away from natural state foods, so to have at least some of the cupboard staples that we have replaced with more natural things is very needed if I’m going to make this eating better and healthier a way of life.

First step to obtaining healthier foods in my house: I plan on keeping my flour and sugar ( no more refined sugar,I’m going with evaporated cane juice after thorough research ) more natural because I like to bake a lot, and changing just those 2 ingredients alone significantly changes the make up of foods like muffins, which mr. LeFan and I both love, but I haven’t been making because they’re not the healthiest of foods.  Now, I can start baking things again and not feeling so bad about it, assuming I don’t eat it all in 1 sitting of course :)

So, I stayed out with some friends til bar time, (which is 2:30am around here) and I think it’s the 1st time in years/since I’ve been living here that I have done that. It probably wasn’t the best move to spend the night drinking flavored vodka w 7up and white russians, since they have a lot of calories, but it’s going to be a couple months before I even have another drink at all, and I was really stressed, so all in all, I think it was a good decision. I had a blast, the hangover isn’t too terrible, and now I feel ready to finish some of my tasks at home and start some new ones at work.

I have had a rough day today. Nothing crazy, rather boring day actually. I just happened to wake up in a crabby mood. I’m stressing out at every single thing it seems. What to do, what to do? Oh I know, let’s have a girls night out and relax.

Happy Saturday Everyone!

ok, so it’s really not that late, it’s not even midnight, but it’s late for me.

I am losing my appetite. I don’t know if this is a good thing, because I’ve been eating better and am starting to break some of the addictions, or if it’s a bad thing, just a phase that will end abruptly and then my appetite comes back with a vengeance.

I suppose I should just keeping eating things no matter what, but that’s really hard for me. I’m a cravings driven eater, and I have a hard time eating something if I don’t feel hungry for it. Probably why I’ve gained so much over the past couple years. This suck.

I think I’m going to abandon my boys for a bit in the morning and go get a free week pass at a gym and see if it’s what I want. I hate working out, I really do. I know that’s not good, and I really don’t have an option, but this sucks sooooo bad. And to make things worse, it sickens me, how much I hate looking in the mirror or trying to find something to wear, and yet I still sit on my lazy ass when I get the chance. Before Wyatt takes a nap or something, I make all these plans in my head of how
I’m going to use that time constructively, and then when that time comes I can safely say90% I don’t do what I need or really want to be doing. Instead, I’m playing a stupid ass game online, or watching a lame show on TV that I most likely don’t even like.

I feel like such a lazy slob.
OK, tomorrow is a new day and I”m getting more shit done! ~g’night~

So, I think I’m sending the arbonne detox stuff back, it’s just too horrible, I can’t do it. No more wasting money on crap that I don’t need, what I need is to get off my lazy butt and exercise :)

So, I wasn’t going to weigh myself until sunday, because that’s when I started everything,BUT when I was getting ready for work this morning my pants practically fell off, so I couldn’t resist. So, I guess I”m weighing in on Wednesdays now.

previous weight:200.4
current weight: 195.8

This just shows how much junk I had over the holidays, probably mostly water weight. I would like to lose 2- 4 lbs. a week so I think I’m off to a decent start. I still haven’t joined a gym though! I just need to pick one.

So I listened to the majority of the audiobook I got, what a disappointment. In some ways, it’s helped me a little, but I guess it’s such a disappointment because I was slightly misled about what the book is actually about. I will never be vegan, but there were a few things that I already knew, but forgot that are a little more reinforced in my head now. Oh well, gotta just keep movin’ on.

After some calorie counting (and fat, and sodium, etc) I realize I don’t eat more than about 1300 calories a day, just on my regular junk food regime, however, I eat a tremendous amount of fat and everything else, except fiber, the one thing that will help get all this shit out of my body. So, I’m going to start watching fat content over everything else, and add more fiber to my diet. I also, don’t drink enough water, so I’ve been making myself carry like 3 bottles at a time so I have no excuse.

homework assignment:drink more water, eat more fiber, and join a stinkin gym. my activity level is key. If I could find a class or something that really excites me, I think it will make all the difference in my sticking with working out.

Any suggestions on some fun, ass kicking classes?

Wyatt is having surgery this morning and I think the day may be shot. We’re all exhausted and will probably spend the remainder in bed once we get back home. Despite drinking coffee I still going to try to eat well even if I don’t get much or any exercise.